Failures

"Lord, make me a means of Your peace." ~ Closing song tonight at mass

I went to church angry tonight and God surprised me with an out-of-town friend who presided at the mass. I relaxed somewhat into the celebration though my distraction was annoying. The Gospel reading spoke of love but all I could do was still seethe from an email that I had received. Peace I leave with you was the also the gospel message. Really? I was not reassured. God is persistent though and I listened to the final song and prayed it but my heart was somehow not in it. Sometimes we just have to fail at loving and being a sign of peace in this world. Feels pretty yucky when that happens.

Peace...anyway.

Suzanne