I have been doing prison ministry for a decade or so, I think. I have not necessarily gone consistently, especially lately due to other commitments and also because at one point I wondered if I was putting myself in harm’s way. After some deep thought and discernment, I decided to keep doing the ministry.
Recently, it seems I have had to review what I believe about this ministry. I strongly believe that people deserve second chances. God has given us all that opportunity and that grace and mercy needs to have a human face some days. I was challenged by friends lately about why I do this ministry to men who do bad things. Why did I not start a ministry at the new prison for women instead? Alternatively, why do I not find a ministry to women in need?
Good questions, I suppose. Years ago when I was writing a series about prison ministry, the women I encountered at the remand centre bothered my spirit. I could not understand them and was not drawn to assist them. Mostly I struggled with how these women who were for the most part also mothers, could give up their children for men or drugs or pleasure of some form. I was pretty judgmental. I could not relate to them. True, I do not relate to the men any better about some of their life choices so I feel as if I have not yet reached the end of that journey to the truth.
I have been drawn on and off to volunteer with women who have been trafficked. I am not exactly sure how I want to plug in though. I guess I just expect that a door will open when I am ready to walk through it. I have connections but have not yet seen something that calls my name. Here I wonder if my mistake is not beginning the journey.
I pray for guidance in both these areas. Walking towards truth is never easy; it is like a labyrinth. Once I arrive, I am hoping I will recognize the place of Truth.
Peace,
Suzanne
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